74 interlude (do not read)

food as a cure
love feels so pure
but you make me wanna puke
so whats the fucking use

mom doesnt want to wake up today
dad doesnt want to wake me up today
i wont, still

and someone told me not to feel
i told myself why to be plastic
like glass and lies melt

but i am

i am still a tiny fake
and what its worst

i am

a naked

flower

which anybody considers it as beauty
cause im a dead art
and you wont come
and give me life

cause maybe i want to feel dumb
and maybe i just have to be silly

and i dont need

you

still

or maybe (i do)

and maybe tonight i dont want you to touch me
maybe tonight i dont want
to be
me

so maybe why dont you stay away
from
me

and why tomorrow wont you come
and kiss me
with lovely silence

cause i dont want to be me
and yesterday i wanted to stay with you
but dont come

dont look for me

i dont need you
i dont need me

i dont need momma

i dont need love
at all
i dont need flowers
and dolls

dont touch
me
tonight