194 unspeakable truth

look me without looking
as if i was in a shame-box
complete the sentences because
i wasnt prepared for that speech

tell me pretty even tho i wasnt hearing
tell me you are looking because im not

whisper quite -my name- as if i was here
because im not
let the shovel cover me
let me speak with my ghost
because im not here
because i wasnt here

tell me you weren't there
also
because i wished so


if i were my ghost
i will apear in the dark
because im not here
because i think i can

i think i can -drown-
drown me
speak
the sentence

i wasn't hearing
i wasn't here
sorry

i wish i told u before
i thought you nice
nicely
nice

tell me
-the truth-
even if

i wasn't

it wasn't me

you know im my ghost