121 vomit my heart

i still remember old songs
they used to sound like angels melodies
i wasnt afraid in that time
i am now

i put on my black jacket
today its so fucking cold outside
i know you are not waiting there for me

im playing alone domino
my father is not going to play with me
i miss my barbies but they dont miss me
i miss friends but they dont miss me

im not laughing about anything
thought people wasnt this way
dumb you, girl crying on the street

childhood was a stillness
i cant remember why i was at the hospital

my mother call me to diner
i wont go

i have fears in my lungs and i cant breathe

i think that for some reason
water is so comfortable i dont wanna came out
im swimming
in my thoughts
like you said you would like to do
but now (you are a stranger to me and all those things)
and i cant let you in
(you will talk to me again and i will say
-hey hello i was waiting for sadness to kill me
and then you appear, thank god!)

and i will die tonight
in my mind
fleurs dans mon tombe
(thank god you're still alive to kill me)

she's smiling at you,
i hope you dont kill her also
i would like to go alone there
dont bring me back black memories
i had have enough

and now my mother is yelling at me
she's saying some stuff i cant hear well
somthing like
god, child, sadness is gonna eat you out
child he's gonna kill you