97 i got no choise

i am thinking about some unrelevant things
i think you do too
dont you ever wonder
what would happen if some things
didnt appear in your life?
and now im stuck here in a memorie
somehow i miss some people
some rutins
i dont know if im sad
and i dont know if i really miss you
or if i miss that way you used to hug me
when i was going to say goodbye
and that eternal question is always on my mind
cause i cant stop thinking
i wish i could stop
im becoming a transparent person
like everything i do
turns into nothing
or maybe the answer is that im a shit
you are too
everything is shit here in this messy word
and now i know
i really fucking miss you
i do really
i wonder why didnt you fuck me harder that night
so now i could remind you the way you are
nothing
shitty nothing
dont come back
dont come back ever
less if i call your name
because i miss you
and i have to stop doing it